caution: rant: ... ..i totally lost my shit on dazre tonight.. .. the guy's performance has been sub-par for the last month or more, and he has attitude to boot.. last week, he 'healed' the general vez fight using holy shocks... .. holy shocks?? seriously? you can't be serious.. cause that is just fucking retarded.. .. so i laughed and said 'whatever, he's a dumbass'.. well, this week we didn't have arach and we didn't have zaell, our two most dependable MT healers.. .. so it was just me.. .. and i can't do it all, all the time.. i mean, gimme a break.. my mana pool is finite and my heals have cast times and cd's.. .. so i paired myself up with dazre, thinking that the other team of marikel + ary would be able to cover our tank while daz and i soaked the pools on that fight.. .. so tonight we go in, i assign stuff, we pull and lose our mt, repeatedly.. .. granted our mt was andice tonight and not battle, who does seem to take less damage, but its only marginal.. .. anyway, so i'm healing and i've set up a rotation of who takes which mana pools.. so we're all doing our thing.. .. with the notable exception of dazre, who seems intent on simply standing there, doing absolutely nothing.. after a few wipes, i committ myself to watching dorje's, watching who is casting what on andice.. .. and i'm seeing ary, i'm seeing marikel, i'm even seeing kirmeki and alex, who shouldn't even BE healing mt, since they're on raid duty.. .. the person i am NOT seeing is dazre.. he is not healing.. .. at all.. so we go through several kiting phases and i'm standing there spamming andice with heals because i'm not seeing daz do shit.. and so i run out of mana and andice dies (not necessarily because of me going oom), and we wipe.. .. so as we're all doing the long runback to the boss, i told daz that it was completely unacceptable to NOT cast anything on the mt and have that much mana on a fight where we don't even regen mana! .. i mean, the dude sat at about 80% mana for several minutes, simply not casting anyfuckingthing.. .. and i'll admit, i was irritated to shit because while i don't mind pulling some dead weight, i mind pulling the same useless dead weight for extended periods of time.. .. and since i'm in charge of healers, poor healing performance makes ME look bad.. .. so i let him have it.. on healerchat.. where all the other healers could see me yelling at him.. .. there is no excuse to NOT cast on the mt when the mt is taking that much spike damage.. if you want to use a stopcast macro, fine, whatever, but fucking CAST something, you useless piece of shit.. .. okay, i didn't use exactly those words, but i got close enough.. ... .. but the real kicker was when he bust out with this 'well, i'm using holy shock + flash of light' shit.. and i'm like, whatever, dude, i'm not seeing you DO anything.. i'm not seeing you CAST anything.. your mana isn't being used, AND, as riako pointed out to me in whispers, he had 861 effective healing on one attempt.. eight six one .. ... uhwha??? that may or may not have been the attempt where he cast THREE spells.. three.. i think on that attempt i cast like 23 or something.. it simply infuriated me.. and to top it all off, he attempted to excuse the fact that he wasn't casting by saying 'well, andice was always 100%' .. and i was like 'that's because i was spamming him with heals since you weren't healing him at all!'.. .. he then tried to come out with some math as to why his holy shock + flash of light was better for the fight, and the boy totally shot him the fuck down with math.. .. i have to say, my heart swelled with love at that moment, because the boy took the time to do the math and prove the asshole wrong.. .. even andice said 'use that combo if you want, but you have got to continue healing me'.. .. what fucking noob waits until the MT takes huge spike damage to start casting a spell.. you do that and you won't have the time to cast anything in time to save him.. .. i mean, jesus.. .. after that i told the boy that we would not raid dazre.. .. and when i talked to marikel about it, she agreed (she knows him irl, but isn't fond of him).. .. she went on to say that he just doesn't fucking care, and only logs on and attends raids to get loot.. .. there is no fucking way i'm going to allow that.. .. this may be a game, but i play it to win, and i will not allow some lazy, selfish piece of shit to skate by on MY efforts and get rewarded for it.. .. PHUCK that.. his ass gets benched.. and i need to write a note to myself: ask battle to have healer friends apply..

kkthx...